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Can’t wait for the room to be done, a table to read up on what I am missing out. Last month, I have learnt a lot from people’s actions and talks. Sometimes knowing too much is really not a good idea. Knowing nothing might make life easier. Much easier in fact. I can’t wait to get the books, to read and just try to see how far I could go. Can’t wait for the room to be done,I repeat.
I don’t feel well, I feel like one day, I will slowly lose everyone. I really don’t give two shits about many, but those few, I do really wish, I would never lose.
One month holiday, why does it seem so short when it’s actually quite long. I feel like the days will just go by. Like how I look back at pictures, people around me. Being in my life and out in a second. The sad truth is, everyone leaves, in time.
Now, what you see and feel, what you love and want. In years to come, months or days. You might not even care about it anymore. People constantly change and sometimes it’s so hard to keep up with everyone. I know I am tired, to keep up with everyone.
I realised, I have changed. I would have cared if someone doesn’t like me or doesn’t contact me. Now, if you want to stay, you would stay. I couldn’t force you to, if you want to be in my life, you would do so. I can’t say anything to change that. I don’t care if you want to stay or leave, it’s your choice of wanting to have me in your life or not. Slowly realising, I, myself, have start to choose people I wish to stay with and want them to stay in my life.
Some parts of me, have stayed alive, some became happier, some have died long ago and I don’t plan to change any of it.
What am I typing, I really don’t know..
